zeldathemes
Hiding Under A Rock

»

owlturdcomix:

My little secret.

osjecam:

sorry i’m late, professor. i’m disenchanted with the human experience and waking up every morning thrusts me into an instant existential crisis

extrovhert:

sorry im poor i cant afford to pay attention

grinderman2:

share a coke with your own crippling sense of loneliness and inability to be mentally present in the real world

I have sunken to the point where I can’t drag myself to my classes, but I can’t stay home because nobody can
stay with me and they don’t want to leave me alone. It’s really hard trying to keep up in school when I am just a mess of anxiety and suicidal ideation, but they can’t hospitalize me again because then I couldn’t do the tms treatment and I can’t take any meds right now. So everyone’s getting mad at me for not going to class, but I can’t? It’s really frusturating and lonely

lexacorico:

Neil Hilborn, “This is Not the End of the World”

I’ve been hearing that the world is ending.
I’ve heard it so much these days i can either completely ignore it or never leave my house again,
that is if I actually left my house for things that don’t directly enable me to keep my house, 
see
I’ve been thinking about driving nowhere. 
I’ve been thinking about becoming a box inside a locked room inside a dark house at the dark end of the street.
I want to go away until i’m gone
it takes so much less energy to not exist than it does to exist and get burned.
I’ve been burned so much i’m not me anymore, I’m a stupid puppet version of me 
I’ve got strings that lead to nowhere,
nothing is pulling on me
I wish someone would drag my hand out of hiding and sign my name on a dotted line
There are days that I cannot find the sun even though its right outside my goddamn window. 
when getting out of bed feels like the key in the doomsday machine,
so on those days this is what I tell myself:
Whatever you’re feeling right now there is a mathematical certainty that someone else is feeling that exact thing. 
This is not to say you’re not special
this is to say thank god you aren’t special
I have kissed no one good night
I have launched myself from tall places and hoped no one would catch me. 
I have ended relationships because suddenly I was also exposed
 Isolation is not safety, it is death. 
If no one knows you’re alive, you aren’t. 
If a tree falls in a forest and no one’s around to hear it, it does make a sound but then that sound is gone.
I’m not saying you will find the meaning of life in other people,
Im saying other people are the life to which you provide the meaning,
see we’re wrong when we say
I think therefore I am.
The more we say it the more it sounds like 
I think therefore I will be.
You cannot think yourself into a full table
You cannot think and make walls and a roof appear around you
I have thought
and thought myself into corners made of words and nightmares
and what has it gotten me,
but more thoughts.
a currency that only buys more currency,
so please
if you want to continue existing 
do something 
learn to make clouds using only your breath
build a house even if every wall leans to the left
love it anyway
just like a season
just like a child
love how you hate yourself sometimes because goddamn at least there’s still something to hate 
I know how easy it is to think and keep thinking until you’re the last person left on earth
until the entire world becomes no larger than the space between your bed and the light switch
but 
I hear the world is ending soon.
when we go, and we’re all going to go
I will be part of it.

writtenly:

Why do I have to be so socially awkward? I just want friends. BE MY FRIEND

deadbyshawn:

deadbyshawn:

appreciate brown eyes more bc the people with brown eyes are grown up forcing to believe fuckin blue and green and grey are beautiful and either detest or get incredibly happy when someone compliments their eye color stop letting this happen

there are people with brown eyes reblogging this and theyre talking about still being sad with their eye color and this is exactly why we need hype about brown eyes

I am really scared about this whole tms therapy treatment because I feel so bad right now, I want to die but I made a commitment to try this treatment and I could be 100% normal in 6 weeks it’s just scary for some reason

Holy crap tms is so weird like I have a woodpecker on my brain